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Journal Entry: Wed Aug 11, 2010, 10:55 PM



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Hey guys~

I don't really know whats wrong, honestly. I thought I was just in an art slump because I haven't been able to finish anything I have started recently..but when you add in the regular headaches I've been getting, and overall blahness of how I've been feeling lately..I dunno..

I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that Derek (Blazer-Flamewing) left to go back to Canada recently..and I've gotten bored/depressed because now, with him gone, I've nothing to do but sit in front of the computer all day and talk with him..browsing online.. looking, hoping for something to do but not wanting to do anything at all..which has in turn caused me to not be motivated to finish any of the art I've started (I have plenty of inspiration to start things...I just cant finish them..), which has caused me to be frustrated, and now I'm in this general blah/down feeling. Oh and on top of that? I've got my dad being well..dad. Yelling, complaining about every single little thing, calling names, blaming, and never letting me speak..as always. It sucks. :<

And then today I had to go and take the Praxis I test, which is basically a test teachers have to take to check if they're competent enough to teach lol. So yeah I had to sit through this 4 hour test, part of which was to write an essay in 30 minutes and I am not happy with how it came out, I barely had time to write it..I couldn't even go back over it to check my spelling/grammar. And now I've this raging headache..blah.

I can't wait to get back to college..things will be much happier there.

I'm sorry guys, I will get those sketches done..I just need to get over this first..

Xeraki


update

Oh, and I updated my commission info. You can see the new prices/information to the right of the journal page, or on my front page. Just thought I'd give you a heads up. Thanks!


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:iconbrendavid:
Brendavid Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2010  Student Digital Artist
good luck :)
i've been having trouble drawing too, I need to get my crap together soon.
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Xeraki Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2010  Professional General Artist
Lets both get our "crap" back together xDD
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Brendavid Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2010  Student Digital Artist
sounds like a plan :dummy:
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jwindjackal Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2010
Sorry you haven't been feeling the best, I know what that can be like sometime :hug: feel better soon kay?
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:iconxeraki:
Xeraki Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2010  Professional General Artist
I am trying, believe me :hug: thank you :heart:
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belken117 Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2010
Aww Xeraki! :hug: I understand how your doing, I feel the same way many times, tho I had a friendship that got really messed up. So bored, I mostly sit here on this computer and, chat with very few friends, it sucks, even when they are so busy.
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Xeraki Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2010  Professional General Artist
I usually only talk with Derek, but I know what you mean.
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belken117 Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2010
Ah, ok.
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Kezrek Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
:hug: :heart: Hope things get better~

I definitely feel ya about college. I think it's because you're around people your own age, in your own generation, who share similar interests. When do you go back?
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Xeraki Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2010  Professional General Artist
:hug: thank you <3

I go back this Saturday, I cant wait :3 Not only am I around friends and inspiring people, I get a breather from my family for a while haha x'D life can get a little stressful around them sometimes x'D
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CrowCandy Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2010  Student Digital Artist
I'm sorry you are feeling down :hug:

Let me know if I can help! :3
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:iconxeraki:
Xeraki Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2010  Professional General Artist
lol, kick me back into gear! xD

:hug:
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shelzie Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2010  Professional Filmographer
:heart: hang in there honey, stuff can only get better. will say a prayer for ya.
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:iconxeraki:
Xeraki Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2010  Professional General Artist
Thank you so much swift <3 I really appreciate it :hug:
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Sirfy Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
I remember feeling that way when I had a thyroid problem...you might remember similar journals I wrote :P

Hope things get better for you <3
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:iconxeraki:
Xeraki Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2010  Professional General Artist
Yeah I remember lol~ Thanks <3

I'm not too down..just..more blah I guess. I cant wait till it passes. xD
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Blazer-Flamewing Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
*snuggles* I'm sorry you've been so stressed lately Love~

its pretty stressing for me, too. I feel bored and unmotivated as well. the job problem doesn't really help, lol~

*kisses*
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Xeraki Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2010  Professional General Artist
I love you~
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vtforpedro Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:/ i'm sorry you're feeling so down, beb... i know things will definitely pick up when you get nice and busy at college again and before ya know it, you'll be back in Derek's arms c: i'm in a bit of an eh mood atm, so i shall EH and BLEH and BLARGH with you in a dark corner until we both find what we're looking for!

always here for you~ ilu <3
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Xeraki Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2010  Professional General Artist
EH BLEH BLARGH <3 xD

ilu2 lisa, you're a great friend <3 :hug:
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vtforpedro Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
XD <33333 as are you, mah dear C:
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